I Promise I'm Not Here To Rant Again.
A lots happened over the past few days. Nothing bad though. Like I said I'm not feeling horrific, I actually feel really good.
For one, I turned 22. I don't feel much difference, but I will say I enjoyed the festivities. It's...really nice having people over, and seeing other people. (Wow a social animal loves being social who could have seen this coming?) I found now that I am living on my own I absolutely love having people over. It's really fun to host people in my clean and cute apartment. Which is almost close to being done at long last. I got a table!
3 of the websites I built/had a heavy hand in building went live last week. It was my first time ever pushing websites live so the public can see them. I had been receiving alot of compliments for it. I've been hauling ass this week to help finish up a website and get it live by the end of this week as well. I've been getting praised for my efforts on that as well. It's crazy to think about, because I always worry about coming off as a fraud. I worry that I don't know enough and that I'm stupid and I shouldn't have this job. But it seems I am loved there.
Speaking of jobs, I had a phonecall from a previous employer last night, asking/begging for me to come back and work at a new location that opened up recently. I will admit I've been looking for a second job just because of the amount of bills that have been handed to me in the past few days (my mother is officially kicking me off of everything). But I don't know if I want to go back to that place. I was so tired of being a cleaner, and I love my job now. I just wish it paid a little more.
It's been really good though, I had my friends over on my birthday and we spent all day playing Magic. They all got me booster packs and I managed to pull a Smothering Tithe, the version of it which is 140 dollars. I loved having them over and hanging out with them and I just love them in general. My partner was there as well and overall it was just a great time.
I worry about jinxing myself with this but I have felt that the brainfog is slowly lifting. With the amount of stimulation I've had over the past week and this website/writing to keep me busy I don't feel like I'm in such a daze. I feel more grounded, and I'm enjoying living on my own. I got cute string lights that I put up today in the living room to make it less spooky looking. I don't have a big main light in there.
I did a lot of cleaning today, and I even found my wallflower so I can keep my apartment smelling nice. I love that my apartment is always clean, and that I'm consistent with keeping it that way. It's so much better than the old place I lived at. I wanna keep it clean especially since I wanna host people every week. I'm really hoping I can convice the magic group to magic at my place on a regular basis. My sibling is coming up tomorrow, and so is my partner, so it'll be great to host them for the night. I wanna do like a spa-themed day where we all just lounge around in face masks and good shit like that.
My music taste growing I think is also helping with the needing stimulation bit. I have been on a kick of listening to new shit whenever I can, and it's mostly been vocaloid and all of it's been really good. I love sitting at work and having one new song on loop for a solid 8 hours its the dream.
“A BIRDBRAIN, baby, i don't know when i'm supposed to stop hit me with the flap down, crashing with a loud sound (foul!).” ― "BIRDBRAIN" by Jamie P. w/OK GLASS